Thankful: Walking and praying each morning. Time spent in the Word. The way that the Holy Spirit teaches. Jada. My family. My Friends. Each day to learn and grow more.
Step 1 (capture thoughts) – Active reach didn’t go as well yesterday. Life gets busy and time sneaks away – this happens all the time. My commitment to healing and aligning with God needs to be first in my life. Everything else can wait the 2 minutes it takes me to renew my mind.
Step 2 (focused reflection) – Emotionally Tired. Pressure at home – feeling like I have to meet my husband and families expectations of me. Anxious about the opinions of others. Wanting to always share what I’ve learned and how I’m growing – part is because I love the way that God is working in my life and I want to share with everyone – but there is a part that wants to share so that I’m seen as a faithful woman – why?! God’s opinion is all that matters
Step 3 (journal) – Do not give into strong cravings to eat, please people, shame myself, complete to-dos… Life for an audience of one from there I’ll know I’m doing rightly and if people are upset because I’m not giving into their complaints or meeting all their needs it a them issue to work out with God – I can’t be a crutch but a teacher and a faithful servant to God. By allowing the brokenness of others to become my responsibility I’m not encouraging them to meet with God. Do not live as a taking slave but as a giving daughter of God. If I take on other’s brokenness and try to carry it for them, I can’t be a giver – I’m weighted down by their burdens and my own… I instead need to point them to God by looking at them through the lens of God. Seeing each person’s pain and not taking it personally but being able to teach. I will never be empty because God is my sustainer. I must remember when life feels heavy, it’s time to lay it at the feet of God and wait on Him – not try to ‘do’ it all on my own. That’s not how we’re called to live.
Step 4 (pray and listen) – Be careful to not be pulled in by your agenda. Be thankful. Take your thoughts captive. Allow God to heal you and stop staying hurt – choose life. Awaken. Keep peace at the font of your steps
Step 5 (active reach) – Isaiah 26: 3 – you keep in perfect peace whose minds are stayed on you, because he trusts in you.
Psalm 19:14 – let the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing to you, o LORD, my rock and my redeemer
my son, be attentive to my words, incline your ear to my sayings. Let them not depart from your sight, keep them within your heart. For they are life to those who find them, healing to all the flesh. Keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of life.Proverbs 4:20-23
Day 5 Extra entry – journal
I struggle with weight and body image so much. It makes me cranky. The thing I’ve learned lately is that weight fluctuates, especially as a female and with our hormones. as I was recapping today on my way to volunteer at church I felt the Spirit stir in me :
“I want you to think about me as much as you think about your weight, the food you ate, should eat next …” “Imagine your life if I was what consumed your every waking thought not your body/food”
New active reach – I will replace every thought of food and my body with a praise to God. I will think so little of food and learn to see that God is my sustainer. Before I cave to my weak flesh desires for food I will pray for filling spiritually. I know that some of my flesh hunger is because my spirit is hungry. so I’ll turn to God first. Take all food thoughts captive – test them – am I hungry for food or for God?